Saturday, September 3, 2016

Remember September

I Like To Think I Make A Difference.
So what do I mean by my blog title? Besides being an obscure line from an old Miss Marple movie. The month has always been a turbulent 30 days for me. (But let's not forget the WTC in 9-11-2001!) Well for one the last two relationships ended in September. The first one, Gary said people were starting to wonder who's car was always parked in his driveway evenings. And he couldn't easily explain why I was a new friend without going into detail about how we were seeing each other. He works in an office job selling real estate, so he has to network and schmooze. The guy is so far in the closet he can see Narnia, so he ended it. And the second BF lived in Omaha and had two kids when he was married The ex and his kids all lived out of town. Then one day in the middle of September Mike told me he didn't want to see me anymore and not call or email. I found out (through sources), he moved to Tulsa to be with his oldest. I went with Mike for about 20 months, the weird thing is at first we really hit it off. I guess I should have seen it coming, on our first date at the restaurant. He was making comments about all the cute waiters and not wanting to know about me.
                   Me And Mike In Happier Times.                        Now I have a guy I work with in the same building, different department that's retiring this month. I've known him for over 20 years, but he hasn't let me get close to him except within the last 5 years or so. I get the vibe that he likes me, but maybe not on the same level, I do.  Like I said before I didn't want to say how I felt when we still worked together. If he didn't feel the same way things could get very awkward very quickly. So I wait until he's out of the shop. I'm still going over in my head how to approach the subject. I really do like him as a friend and wouldn't want to lose that. I had conversations where he talks about ladies he thinks are cute. Although I've made the same remarks about attractive women. But like I said before, "I like women, I just don't sleep with them." I've also heard him make homophobic remarks about music artists. Is this one of those cases of homophobia being the best gaydar? When the time is right and lots of time to talk, I'm going to let Dave know that I have a big man-crush on him. If that bit of info makes him mad, then F#CK HIM!  But if everything goes great he has a p-u truck he might sell, if we become BFFs I want a memento that belonged to him to remember him by. I'll only offer to buy it after I found out if we play on the same team. Should be an interesting month!          One last thing, Yesterday, September 2 it's been one year since our friend Jay (Tray) Murphy untimely passing. I only knew him a short time, but we really had a lot in common. Jay was one blogger that got me into blogging as well. I did a post on FB and his memory still lives on.  :-(     

9 comments:

  1. No advice to offer - good luck. I am so glad I was never single in small town America. Take care,

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    1. Hi David, That's OK Thanks for the comment. You take care as well.

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  2. Oh it works out somehow, if you keep going.

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    1. Hi Spo, Thanks I know it will sometime. If it isn't my friend Dave some other guy later on might be it, my life long BFF.

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  3. this should prove interesting; no advice, proceed with caution.

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    1. Thanks AM, I may not know this month but sometime before the year is out. If I don't talk to Dave in person maybe a phone call or email. I'll just play it cagey right now.

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  4. Randy,
    Thanks for sharing your personal story. I have no doubt you will meet Mr. Right, soon. Living in Nebraska, the heart of Red country can't be easy but He's there, believe me. Even in this day of so called "gay acceptance", those living in the south and west still have to live in the closet if they want to keep their jobs. Even when I lived in Philadelphia and Downingtown, I lost both jobs because I was out an gay. Homophobia is alive and well. And I believe the biggest homophobes are some gays themselves who are afraid of being found out. You have a lot going for you Randy. Nice looking, good personality and good soul. I have no doubt that the Magic will happen. Hey, if it can happen to a nudge like me IT can happen to anyone! I'm glad you're blogging regularly. Keep us posted. And remember how I found you know who, through my blog!
    Ron

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  5. Hi Ron, Thanks so much for your kind comments. I just got done with another weekly blog post. Like I said, I like to post a blog on Fridays or Saturday every week.

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  6. Dave in person maybe a phone call or email. I'll just play it cagey right now.

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